First time feeling her kick me from outside!!

I guess she is really growing now in my tummy. I woke up at 2:30am for toilet break and can't go back to sleep until now. It's 4:13am. I feel her kicking from inside and decided to place my hand on my tummy and yes, I feel her for the first time outside of my tummy. Although this is not the first time I experience this but I can never be amused like a first timer to feel my lil one trying to communicate with me.. It's not about vigorous kicking from within like you seeing a drum beating. It's just tiny small waves that I feel from within.. How shd I put this?? Hhmm.. Ok imagine you are experiencing minor tsunami.. Feeling the wave from below the sea.. Of course this one is very very mini tsunami going on in my stomach.. Lolxx I hope I explain it right.. :)
Now I can't wait to spend the weekend with daddy so that he can also feel his lil one movement.

I really can't wait to see her.. My lil sweet pea.

I'm jz so plain stupid to believe that friendship still exist!!

The battle that I've been fighting for the last few months. I hv told myself to let go. But I can't. The more I see her I felt the faker she has become. I doesn't know if I can continue longer in this position, until the day I get to leave. I can't take it anymore becoz i really run out of patience. Today's horrorscope, was so right. They say that I'll have mi or disturbance and that I might need to takes some time off to relax. I jz hope that I can just let go... She is no longer worth all the cell that I have killed the whole morning!!!