Another hope?? Will this one come true??

Today I had a phone call in the office and was quite surprise as that call was to ask me for an interview later that day itself. I asked if we can change the interview to tomorrow but was rejected as they need people real fast and would like to finalize everything hopefully by 29 july 2008. I have told Audrey to roughly guide me through their team's process but didn't manage to do that and I was already asked for interview. I wasn't fully prepare and I also doesn't want history to repeat itself, the previous 2nd round of interview for the PMO team - I didn't prepare myself, in the end... got shoot-ed..

So I was kinda scare today while waiting for death toll, hehee... not really death toll but I really hope not to be rejected and can actually stop going for interview for some time. Prior to the interview, I was having butterfly in my stomach the whole afternoon after lunch. I'm really getting sick and phobia about interviews, where i have to say the same thing again and again. Another reason is, I can't take rejections anymore... So painful le...
The whole thing seems postive but I'll only be inform tomorrow if I'm successful. geezzz... Oyi praying hard again.. Hoping for miracle to happen...

Apart from that, Oyi's been busy with renovation for the new house. Been looking around for quotations from different contractors and finally made up our mind on the contractor that includes/provide everything. Finally done on getting the flooring, plaster ceiling and electric wiring contractors. Only this has burnt a big hole in our pocket. With the fuel price increasing, it's really taking a toll in our budget. Initally we plan to have a L-shape counter for the kitchen, but we have to give up on that as we couldn't find a place to put the washing machine. So have to stick with the tradition table top.. haizzz... But of coz that doesn't dampen our spirits..I just can't wait to shop around for furnitures to decorate the whole house.. hehehe... *can't wait oh~!*
Oh yeah 31 July 2008, the big day... renovation will start and we need to go through some ritual before renovation starts.. Will post the pictures then... Today Onu told me about PCK. About this gf and the house they bought. Was kinda sad to hear about that but if it's not destiny to be yours, then don't force... Coz there won't be happiness.. I trully believes in god's arrangement. Although some times, I choose not to believe, but god's will is something you can't afford to ignore... lppl... hahaha... oyi's just crapping at this time of the day~! :p

Confused... & Disappointed

I was very unhappy yesterday. I have an escalation from India, from the noisiest, most troublesome ISDM. I have provided wrong costing and and they have made a big fuss over it. The whole thing can be solve if she would only listen to me. But she choose to bring the whole issue to my boss. Obviously my boss will be on her side whenever she screams and yell. Yea, he's not the type where he can protect his own people. Instead he'll actually help the sales by lecturing us in the email right in front of the sales folks. Saying very hurtful word as if you are a worthless slaves, yes slaves not soldiers. He has been creating space for Sales to actually step on top of him. That is why the escalation keeps flowing to his mailbox. I believe he thinks people actually trust him? I don't think so. It's because you're on the top that's why they come looking for you because you have already make them feel so comfortable by looking for you. Coming back to yesterday's escalation, he didn't help me out instead blame me and doesn't even bother to go through what I want to do to solve this. I waited for my senior to come back, and told him the whole story. He not only helped me out but also reply to that biatch. She stood firm and insist that we should do according to what we have committed. That's not a big problem, as we can solve it by our end by getting approval. But before we do that, my seniors shoot them some questions that need Sales to answer in order for a smooth approval process.
1) Why the first few same requests has been done but no download. - why are they keep requesting things that they know their customer will not buy? - is this how they manage their customers and work? - come on... sales.. kononNya!
2)What is the quantity and the probability of getting the order in.

A day has passed, this has been at least 6 business hours. Urgent?? Do you need to take that long to reply? I did admit that this is my mistake. I shouldn't have trust them and be on their side them by trying to expedite the whole process. I should have followed the procedures and let them wait. After the whole thing, Boss came to question and lecture again. Saying "Don't open your doors for them to shoot you". You are not better off than me either. Have you also not open your gate for them to step into your teritory and head? He said he wants to escalate extended teams, but he goes there with 2 combs of banana. Other teams can use data to escalate us back. 2 teams have already treated us this way. Other's manager can protect their own staff as he knows his staff's capabilities and how tie-d up they are. What can my boss do for our team? Lecture, lecture and lecture that you are not able to manage your work, you are not efficient enough, you are only doing operator work. Just for your info, he reffered me as an operator before. This is how he appreciates his subordinate.

The india sales folds has always been like this, whenever they make mistake, they don't CC your boss and you HAVE TO help them to clear the problem. They can tell you this when the actually need your help to cover their mistake:

Need your urgent support. The ITC skus below, we want to revise the same and turn it on in smarts for 5 months. The pricing remaining the same. Sorry for all the trouble as this was my mistake and requesting for 3 months, as last time for the same price we had supported for 5 months. Hey, this is very critical and appreciate if you can support on the same, as I am expecting the p.o. today second half. Thanks.

Please show respect for others, if you want others to do the same unto you. Sometimes, I just don't understand them. They can scold and give you turnado when they are very mad and when they need you to do them a favour they can just rip off their face and beg you to help them. Or some, can also be very rude and force you to do things for them ASAP. Oh yeah, they also like to send email using capital letters, bolded and in red colour. They are not treating others like human, why should we treat them like one too?
I'm sorry if you feel i'm rude sometimes, but if it's wasn't you that teach me, I won't treat you like this as well.

But god has been good to me. I had a very nice dream last night following the bad day at work. I'm just hoping that the dream will come true.... **finger cross**

Lost again

Ever since came back from hong kong, my workload has not been reduced. Everyday, when i'm about to leave the office, I still see at least 10 new requests lying in my mailbox. Just don't understand how come each and every request can be urgent, urgent and urgent. Not that they don't know it's my after working hours already. But they still will try everyway to get you to action on their request. Why, why why ne? We're all working nia mar.. Have to be so "pia" meh?? Takkan already married to the company day and night also have to work? Yesterday was a replacement holidays but the request flow in like it's nobody business. I have a dinner appointment with Billie, Audrey and Er at summer garden. The atmosphere is cozy, nice and romantic, but the food really no go. :p Anyway have tried so no going back.

R.E.J.E.C.T.E.D!!!

The worst that I fear has already happened. I was rejected. The hope for 1 and 1/2 months has disappear into thin air. Disaster day - 9th July 2008. Following the interview, I appologized for the bad performance the day before. I was questioned back for what happened. Do I have any issue? Or I just can't focus? Seriously, I don't know how to answer him. All I can murmured was "No issue, but nervous". I daren't tell him what happened, but I wasn't feeling comfortable with the whole interview with the other lady boss. Every of her questions shoot right into my heart. The arrows so blunt that I can feel it passing slowly through causing painful feeling. So painful, that makes him think I can't focus. He mentioned, "i can't get you in now". That's it, the end of the highest hope I have for myself in 2008. They can just so easily tell you this after making me wait for 1 and 1/2 months.
I truly believe that the second interview should have come earlier. The second interview should be conducted even before telling me i'm successful. I really feel what ""walk the walk" has advice is true. Probably this second interview was just a "show" to tell me.. "I'm sorry, you have fail the test". If this was ever true, I would appreciate they just tell me I wasn't successful rather than asking me to join the interview got hurt answering numerous question and hurt me again with the word - "you are not successful". Some may regard this as company polictics, something that I know I'm not qualified to play around. Even before and after the interview, alot has advice, so sorry you have been very unlucky to face this person*. I'll leave it for you to guess.

Anyway everything has passed, no point sulking over this. Get up and move on... I'll take your (walk the walk) advice and find people who knows how to appreciate my values.
Thanks for standing by me all these times. I guess the best thing that happens to me is the support from my family and my beloved friends - the five musketeers... I love you guys!!

Second chance...???

I went through the second round of interview today. It was very fast, less than 1/2 an hour. But it wasn't that smooth as I thought. I was being question and pushed until it make feel like a dwarf. The whole process took 1 and half months, and up till now I don't where I stand. They give me hope, but at the same time the rejected me. I was rejected for at least thrice on the spot. Then after a few days, they gave me hope again. After about a week or two, told me i was rejected. Out of the sudden, ask me to go for second round interview. I doesn't know what they want but they are making me losing my interest and confidence. One of my best friend told me they are not sincere and might be playing around, but I don't think they have the time to do that with this company. When I told the other best friend that the second interview was scheduled, she asked "are you really going to attend??" I replied: Y not?? It's money. People say "Find a job that you like so that you don't have to suffer". How can you justify that you really like the job before you even had your hands tried (on the job)? So what if's related or it's something you are good at?? Will you really like it? This is another question, totally 2 different things. During the interview, I was being asked, so many Qs. So many that I manage to handle except for that one Q related to the job which I can't answer. I can see the interviewer is not happy with my answer, yes it's my fault for not preparing for the interview and I admitted that in the interview. She keep asking and insists a satisying answer. I just keep silence and said sorry. I'm not very positive this round, anyway even the first round I was rejected on the spot. So nothing much to worry, but it's not easy to face rejections. Well at least not for me. *sigh*

It has been so much work after the trip, I aint have time to update. I'll, find one day to blog it with pictures. I promise, with picturessss... :)