Am I pat tor-ing with a robot??

If every decision that you want to make needs to be put into data and number to analyze, did this also include the decision you need to make for your relationship?? Then what is he parameter/criteria/guidelines that will influence the decision?? If everything can be done in excel spreadsheet, then we doesn't need emotion, feelings or relationship. We would be robots and robots doesn't need pat tor!!!!

Best Trip ever!!!

Last friday I was on leave to go KayL with KW. He has a 3D2N voucher in Le Meridien Hotel. The hotel is very beautiful and I really had a great time there. The best part was the company and food throughout the stay. My initial plan to go down to KL is to look for clothing. But I couldn't find any suitable. So had a lot of makan and minum with good companies. Another best thing is, i'm trying to match-make one of my best friend with KW's childhood friend. I see progress in the 2 days, yea the  first 2 days they met.. All the best ya!!! I really hope to hear good news from both of you!!! *wink* *wink*

I'm just so plain stupid to believe it....

Yea, who cares for you when you are in the working environment. I'm trying to create a good environment for all to work in. What I got back for a return? Scarcastic comments and people climbing up your head. Guess that is the reason why there's so many emo ppl in this team. So fucking tired to be where I am here. You want to take care of your ass, so does other ppl. Too bad, friendship will go down the drain. Don even mentioned about being friends for so long.. You don give a damn, why should I?

I just hope to be stronger but my determination is not strong enough to pull me through. Like sucks and is in a deep shit over here. I just hope to leave, leave and leave!!!!

PCK was in dell!!!

When Louis told me that PCK is coming to Dell, I didn't really believe. Until the very last minute, I choose to believe Louis. And he was really here!!! Our sales department hire him to entertain the sales folks for some event. The whole event was very bias, PCK keep mentioning that this is for the sales ppl only. Really show outside ppl how competitive dell is even among it's own department.. Shows no teamwork. So games and photo session is only for SALES ppl.. :(
I only manage to shoot PCK from below stage :s

Traitors everywhere.....

So tired to be around all the traitors!!! Gggrrhhhhh...

Don't bother to say it!!!

Don't bother to say u r worried when you didn't even bother to wait till I reach home safely!!!! NATO!!! That's what I hate the most!!!

Although I din get to eat uncle burger, but driving all the way there gives me some peace of mind.. At least manage to clear some doubts that has been bothering me. I really enjoyed the journey like I used to do it when I was unhappy during colleges years!!

Good things goes to those who can wait..

I hope this time is a blessing in disguise.. I'm not sure if I'm ready to go this time. Lord, pls give me some pointers...

Feedback time

Every year my company will spend some budget to hire a third party company to come out with survey questions(usually the same questions) to gather feedback from employees and analyze the feedback.
Every organization/department will thrive their best to fulfill the criteria before the feedback session. This doesn't exempt the organization that I'm currently attached. Unfortunately this year's result wasn't very good. Should be around 65% only. And as usual, the best is to be above 80% like most of our CE. So with so much difference compare to last year, which I think was like near 80% maybe 1 or 2% lower. Our management decided to have a brainstorming sessions to look at how we can improve within our space. I was chosen to represent my team, to voice out how & what we feel. There was 2 sessions to discuss about this. The first session was really fun bcoz you can see that alot really vent out their anger, feelings. What I want to stress is that, by the end of the 2nd session, we asked when will we likely see the changes/improvement from management. And the answer we got was "I can't gurantee anything. I'll voice out to the management and they will look at it". Isn't this just a waste of time to sit and voice out but in the end nothing happens?? I really got nothing to say. Don't bother to ask if you don't intend to do something.

What impress me was that one manager agrees that they are not value-ing their employees and my manager gave all reasons and hr process to convince us that the management is doing the right thing by mot promoting their existing staff and rather hire a B2 from outside.
Guess this is what we call politics!!! Anyway won't be long here, as I don't see consistency in promotions. If your boss like you, then you'll be promoted la!!! Haha.. No need hard work, just need networking and some luck to get your manager to like you!!!

At times!!

There will be at times you doesn't laugh at the funniest joke and a million tears that flows no where.. Then you know you are stress.. Nothing interests you in life anymore.. That is how depression comes about!! I am depress???
Cry it out, and everything will be alright!! Amigos para siempre really works for me

Long time no post~~

It has been a long time since my last post.. seems like this blog and her fren's blog is dead! No one is posting anymore recently.. aikkss.. will continue to bug my lovely friends to post more on their blog..
Ok, let me update with what I have done for the past 1 month++ .

Let me start with today.. Received a call from my sister that Mika had diarrhoe and was passing out blood and vommitting non-stop.. We were all worried because she doesn't know how to express her feelings on what is wrong with her.. I wasn't in pg so I didn't get to see how serious she was. I was worried all night and keep on praying that she will be alright. Fly back home this morning and took her to vet. Luckily no big issue. She got food poisoning!!! Got 2 jab on the butt and vet gave some medicine.. Since she is not vommitting anymore, Vet said should be nothing serious.. **I really hope so**

Seriously, I doesn't know. I hadn't been going out on shooting, neither did I work out that much for the past one month.. I really doesn't know what I had done, but time flies real fast!! I lost my momentum of going to gym and I ate alot.. going for buffets, steamboat!! that's already too many to name, lolxx coz it's all high calories..

Anyway, I'm going back to gym more often now... hoping my momentum will be back again.. Gambate Lynda ~~~!!

Long time no post~~

Photography Talks - Freezed.Asia

I'll be skipping gym for these 2 days. Will be attending the photography talk in Than Hsiang Temple. Today's talk is on Flash and tomorrow on "Images that Stir the Emotion". Both should be quite interesting. Definition of interesting, unless you really like the topic that is being covered. Hahah.. this is so lame right? Ok, I'm not good in explaining words. Never had been anyway! So I guess I'll enjoy myself for this 2 1/2 hours talk!! Will be meeting alot of Freezed members tonight and tomorrow night~! Weeehhheee..

Fire is not burning anymore

I have 2 things to blog about today.

1. Gym

Since last week, Gym is not that lau juak anymore coz alot of members didn't continue their membership, thus not much people came for the class. Even the instructor is not sweating out alot. No more ooohhhmmm to continue there.. all also mou lei san hei..

2. Attention seeker

That person is really getting on my nerve now.. How can they be so kau bin pui one. Really beh pai seh and just keep talking good stuff about theirselves. Sudah tak boleh tahan..

Attention, so what???

Why does some people just like full attention!! So what if you think you are the best.. nothing to brag about ok, heck!!! I just hate this kind of people.. Not like you are unusually good looking, pls look at the mirror la.. People didn't stop you not becoz they really admire you.. coz it's no point arguing with you... Heck!!! I just hate this kind of people!!!!!!!!

Absolute Fitness in Heritage Club, Penang~!

nitially when Ben told me that they are most probably going to Heritage Club due to special rates for CH members. I was abit hesitant to believe that the deals will be as good as Fitness Studio or should I say, even better deals. After we know about CH closing down, we were quite sad and we started looking around. YY found out from her source that Fitness Studio is giving corp rates of RM80/ month. I met up with the girls that night and we decided to go check out Heritage Club. I volunteer to go enquiry about this. Although the salesperson did lied alot to me which I found out later, but I still sign up due to

1. Distance is nearer compare to Fitness Studion in Gurney Tower.
2. Alot of CH members will be going over there. Chin Lee brought her fanz to Heritage and asked if she could conduct classes there.. I guess Sam also, since he is already teaching there.
3. They are providing long towels for every visit.. This is so cool, in CH, you need to rent them - RM 2 for each!!
4. Heritage Club has more parking lots
5. The place is more classy, more equipments and even the toilets!! Imagine, only 1 toilet bowl for CH.
6. They have swimming pool that we can use. They also have 2 classes in the pool. Waterobic.. cool isn't it??
7. I can also work out in Absolute Fitness in Autocity..

Overall this place is definately more classy than CH.. they also have wifi, free flow of drinks, which you get to press. Not like CH, you have to make them. I'm not sure if they will be giving you membership card, the way to get into the gym is through your finger print. I already did my finger print today!!!

Glad I made the right choice of asking. Lolxxx...

Helping out at Onu's house on 1st May 2010!!!

Onu decided to treat her friends to her house for dinner. She asked me to help out since she can't really cook. Didn't take much photo. Anyway this is what I have!!!



Smashed potato salad which is a failed product initially turn out as nice as the potato salad that we had in mind.

Forget to take photo of the spaghetti.. Only remember when i was eating. This is the only picture I got for the spaghetti.. Spicy Olio spaghetti!!! Delicious..

Feeling guilty

I asked my boss whether I can swap my 1 hr lunch on Tuesday so that I can attend fitball. My boss made me feel guilty becoz she thought that I had something important to do. Makes me feel so bad for asking about the swap. I guess I won't be able to do it again!!! Sigh.. Exercising before work really refreshen me alot. At least I don feel so tired.

Last day of trial...

Attended ABT class today... So si pek stim. After 1 hour nia hand so tired. Sweat a lot though!! Instructor was nice... At least she understand we all newbie. She really teaches us.
Today is the last day of 1 month trial that I sign up. Now in a dilemma.. Shd I find a partner to sign up with me or go for individual package?? Actually been searching for one month but nobody seems interested. Guess I'll go sign up for 3 months individual package this sat so that can attend fit ball... Real nice... I starting to love sweating which I don before!!! Weeeeheeee

Last Monday I went to the flying club's center. I didn't really like it and it's quite expensive. So decided to stay back at federal because
1) distance
2) i'm alr use to it
3) got fitball class

I was really sad that I actually have to leave federal place. Like I told YY, I think I have fallen in love with Clark Hatch
Clark Hatch makes it happen!!! I hope I'm drawing nearer to my goal!!!

Hadyai anyone???

I seriously need to get a getaway for a good massage. It's just so stressss nowadays in the office. Gosh... please let me know who is interested?

The right "thing"

The right mindset plus determination will sure land me in the right direction. I have learned a lot in this position.. The way to be firm, don care be it you are right or not. Just be loud and firm. If they prove u wrong, appologize. So simply theory!!! Don care about what n how people see you, just do it!!!!

My new idol is using iPhone too!!! 

My new idol is also using iPhone... Yippie!!! I think he just got it recently; definately after BLA!!! You are d man, P'Ton!!!
By the way his bro is already using it!! Kekekek. Thanks to fb for this info. 

A day with Rachel

Went to shoot Rachel with Desmond, Khai Ming and Siew Ming. It was a fun day indeed, although I was hesitant initially for this shooting. Overall turn out to be good and I kinda like the results. Although not much of photo to post.. Here are some..

First time....

This is my first time posting in
my Blog using ipone at starbuck, klcc.

It is coming...

Never knew the top of the item in my wishlist is becoming a reality. Hah... It's like a dream come true for me. The day he said yes, was the happiest b'day present for me this year. Despite I didn't have a proper b'day celebration with my family. Just a steamboat dinner, but it was fun..

Now I'm waiting for my present to come. No stock at the moment, from Maxis dealer in prangin mall. The uncle there doesn't seems very helpful. I'm going to Maxis in krystal point tomorrow to check if they have stock. I hope so, i'll make the payment right away.. lollxxx...

Happy B'day to me..

Another year had passed and I'm another year older. Onu and Rachel celebrated b'day with me the night before. We went to sakae as dunno where else to go for dinner. Had a scrumptious dinner and the company was good. Yesterday lunch, boss treat us to an eight course dinner with suckling pig. Food wasn't really nice but the thoughts of my dear boss to treat us was really appreciated. Before lunch, received a call from head hunter about a job in penang. He is actually based in SG. Although I hope he can find me a job in SG, but getting another job in penang so that I'm able to leave this team. I hope is also considering a good thing. Mom and Wayne's concerned about job security. Coz I told them it's a small company compare to MNC. I haven't really check out the company yet. The JD looks promising.. more like a business analyst consultant and pros is that I can handle projects. Yummy.. hahha well at least this is something that I can look forward to. I hope this would be another great present for me this year... I'll definitely consider this. All I hope is that the pay is going to be and would have the opportunity to go on business trips.. :D
Of course apart from that, this is the first time I'm making a wishlist for my b'day. Hopefully there will be people out there good enough to donate/give this to me.. wahahhahha

Wishlist:
1. iPhone
2.18-200mm telezoom
3.DSLR Camera Bag


Not too greedy am I??? heheh.. Any way..

Happy Birthday to me!!!
May heart think work done, stay leng leng forever & world have peace.. haha.. :p

Reorg again... and it's going to be major!!!

Not sure if I have blog about this before. Had a 1 to 1 session with my boss a few weeks ago. I asked about the re-org that is going to happen within our organization. Today, after work boss was talking about CNY onsite support and also spill some beans on the re-org. Looks like this major re-org is not what I look forward to. Not much direction from the above yet. My boss was saying if I need a discussion with her set up a 1-1 with her. At the mean time I still doesn't know what is best for me; or should I say I don't even know anything about this re-org. Shd I stay or shd I leave? I hope I can leave, but this is not in my action item for past few months. I'm actively looking around now.. sigh.. Will I be too late?

What does not kills you; only makes you stronger~!

03/02/2010
I'm on an emo mode today. Was bothered by work and people around me that I can't focus. Relating to my old post, I mentioned people only want to hear what they wants only. Why is this happening so frequent to me. Don't bother to ask if you can't accept what I want/ about to say. Whatever the reasons that you gave is useless if things will be ending this way. I'm not trying to say that you are wrong. If throwing back hurtful words makes you better, you are making me moving further away from you. I read about an article about recycling friends. One of the reason you should recycle your friends is when they no longer make you look good. I wonder if I should consider this. But are they my friends at all? Maybe when I change team, yea I can recycle them.
Read this statement through a friend's note in MSN. "What doesn't kills you; only makes you stronger" A very powerfull quote that I always remember. Because every experience I bring with me, will definately help along the way. Although some times I feel unfair, but where/what on this earth is fair.. Even our earth is round.
On top of that, I was screamed by my BFF for the unfortunate incident that happened to her on her way back from work. Luckily she is safe... Just major defects on her car. I know she is frustrated but my advice to her so that she can learn and be more careful as well as she will know what to do next time. I guess my advice didn't turn out pleasing to her ear. If I tell you what you want to hear, will this resolves or turn back time before the accident happened? I don't mind her screaming if she is using me to let go of her anger. But the accident already happened, no point to blame whether you did was correct or wrong. Just do what you need to do after the accident. Whatever reasons you got, you know what is best for you to do at that point of time. If what I said disappoint you, you can go ahead to think that I didnt stand by yourside. All I could think of is to get you to do what you have to do now. It's sad though of what happened today... Last day of chinese calendar 2009... I'm sad, unhappy and depress.

I'm going to donate my blood tomorrow. One of the rules stated at least 8 hours of sleep. But here I am still blogging and if I shut down my computer now, I'm only left with 5 hours of sleep.. Good Luck.. I hope I don't pengsan tomorrow.. Again, a new beggining; a new HOPE!!

Tired of stubborn people...

I can feel that my shift team mates are not very happy with me. I know they look down on me for not being so technically good compare to others. I know they are I would say "jealous" of me able to survive in this team without strong knowledge in IT. Eventhough I had a hard time surviving, I'm glad I manage to stay put so long. Well at least 1 year. Recently one of the guys keeping honking about SFDC and threatening me that I would lose my job because I doesn't know anything about what is happening as a SME. I know he is jealous that he wasn't officially choosen as SME. I bet he saw alot of position outside hiring those with the experience for this application. He has used all ways to belittle me. Yes, I know he looks down on me. Not even a single word he can accept if it comes out from my mouth. I'm already very stress that I need to deal with this kind of people. But I manage to pull through. Then there is another one that I had "fondly" likes to deal with. She is the one person the whole team also quarrel with. I find her quite amuse because she can't handles her emotion so she is a very emo person. Recently there's this 1 issue that is very new to us. Neither anyone from my team nor dev is aware of the possible solution to resolves this. Worst still, I'm the only one that has the access. As we need to communicate with the folks from US, I have got my counterpart in Brazil for assistance. In order to do that I need to share my password to them. This fella from my shift, She has been pestering me about what to updates and I'm ok with that although I don't really like it. Then a discussion with my manager to share my username and password came up and we weighted the pros and cons. The decision was to share my username and password so that BR team can follow up. And this person find fought by using policy to threaten me. I doesn't understand what is her concern. I wish I can disclose the communication here but I will not do that. What ever I am trying to explain she just couldn't accept. And kept bring up the policy word. So tired to talk to this kind of person that doesn't understand what I'm bringing through. I know I can be bullied easily. But I also have my standpoint and limit. Don't let me burst, you ain't want to deal with a volcano. ggrrrhhhhhh...... No wonder I have been so emo too.. Force by the environment to change the way I am.

I think I am ... psycho or got penyakit???

I think my sickness has been very serious now. Guess what I did on tuesday. I went to HSBC bank to withdraw money. If you have HSBC saving accounts you would know that the order of getting back your card and slip plus money is different when withdrawing money. Usually the card will come out first, money then only slips. But in HSBC it's slip, card then money. The ordeal that I follow is take slips, card and then money. I was in a rush that day because I was blocking some one's car as there are limited car parks. So I quickly grab my slip and card and rush out of the bank. I was supposed to meet Onu in her branch after that to pass her the money. I didn't realize that I didn't take my money from the ATM at all. Until halfway up the fly over in front of Gold Coast. Fearing that some one would actually took my money from the ATM, I quickly rush back to HSBC. Managed to talk to some one who then referred me to Mr Teh, the person in charge of ATM. He said I have to wait for him to finish his balancing only he can advise whether the machine retract my money back. I told him my concern, that I'm afraid (being a kiasu) that some one would have taken my money. He, left with no choice, but to check on the CCTV for me. Later he came down informing me that he saw the machine retract my money back. Feeling relieved, he file a complain for me and that he will check whether the machine has returned the money back to my account. He called the next day and told me that he has credit the money back to my account.
Is my sickness getting more serious? or I'm crazy until this happened to me. Onu used to tell me this kind of case, and I have confidencely told her that this will never happened to me. I guess I concluded too early..

Leave

I want to leave. I am tired...

PMS-ing

PMS hasn't been regular for the past few months. Causing alot of break off emotionally, physically and mentally. This month was late again and the load was heavy.. now causing head ache too.. today is a very bad.

Reason being, not feeling well plus got to know that my car was scratched from front till back. And that scratch is deep. Not like those that can be removed through polishing. I believe this was done intentionally. Haven't got the chance to snap a photo yet. will post it when i have it. Aiikksss... itchy hand idiot sure burn a hole in my pocket. I just hope Karma will get back to that person.. yes Karma.. wait till you got car.. i curse yours will be worst than mine.