Tired of stubborn people...

I can feel that my shift team mates are not very happy with me. I know they look down on me for not being so technically good compare to others. I know they are I would say "jealous" of me able to survive in this team without strong knowledge in IT. Eventhough I had a hard time surviving, I'm glad I manage to stay put so long. Well at least 1 year. Recently one of the guys keeping honking about SFDC and threatening me that I would lose my job because I doesn't know anything about what is happening as a SME. I know he is jealous that he wasn't officially choosen as SME. I bet he saw alot of position outside hiring those with the experience for this application. He has used all ways to belittle me. Yes, I know he looks down on me. Not even a single word he can accept if it comes out from my mouth. I'm already very stress that I need to deal with this kind of people. But I manage to pull through. Then there is another one that I had "fondly" likes to deal with. She is the one person the whole team also quarrel with. I find her quite amuse because she can't handles her emotion so she is a very emo person. Recently there's this 1 issue that is very new to us. Neither anyone from my team nor dev is aware of the possible solution to resolves this. Worst still, I'm the only one that has the access. As we need to communicate with the folks from US, I have got my counterpart in Brazil for assistance. In order to do that I need to share my password to them. This fella from my shift, She has been pestering me about what to updates and I'm ok with that although I don't really like it. Then a discussion with my manager to share my username and password came up and we weighted the pros and cons. The decision was to share my username and password so that BR team can follow up. And this person find fought by using policy to threaten me. I doesn't understand what is her concern. I wish I can disclose the communication here but I will not do that. What ever I am trying to explain she just couldn't accept. And kept bring up the policy word. So tired to talk to this kind of person that doesn't understand what I'm bringing through. I know I can be bullied easily. But I also have my standpoint and limit. Don't let me burst, you ain't want to deal with a volcano. ggrrrhhhhhh...... No wonder I have been so emo too.. Force by the environment to change the way I am.

I think I am ... psycho or got penyakit???

I think my sickness has been very serious now. Guess what I did on tuesday. I went to HSBC bank to withdraw money. If you have HSBC saving accounts you would know that the order of getting back your card and slip plus money is different when withdrawing money. Usually the card will come out first, money then only slips. But in HSBC it's slip, card then money. The ordeal that I follow is take slips, card and then money. I was in a rush that day because I was blocking some one's car as there are limited car parks. So I quickly grab my slip and card and rush out of the bank. I was supposed to meet Onu in her branch after that to pass her the money. I didn't realize that I didn't take my money from the ATM at all. Until halfway up the fly over in front of Gold Coast. Fearing that some one would actually took my money from the ATM, I quickly rush back to HSBC. Managed to talk to some one who then referred me to Mr Teh, the person in charge of ATM. He said I have to wait for him to finish his balancing only he can advise whether the machine retract my money back. I told him my concern, that I'm afraid (being a kiasu) that some one would have taken my money. He, left with no choice, but to check on the CCTV for me. Later he came down informing me that he saw the machine retract my money back. Feeling relieved, he file a complain for me and that he will check whether the machine has returned the money back to my account. He called the next day and told me that he has credit the money back to my account.
Is my sickness getting more serious? or I'm crazy until this happened to me. Onu used to tell me this kind of case, and I have confidencely told her that this will never happened to me. I guess I concluded too early..

Leave

I want to leave. I am tired...

PMS-ing

PMS hasn't been regular for the past few months. Causing alot of break off emotionally, physically and mentally. This month was late again and the load was heavy.. now causing head ache too.. today is a very bad.

Reason being, not feeling well plus got to know that my car was scratched from front till back. And that scratch is deep. Not like those that can be removed through polishing. I believe this was done intentionally. Haven't got the chance to snap a photo yet. will post it when i have it. Aiikksss... itchy hand idiot sure burn a hole in my pocket. I just hope Karma will get back to that person.. yes Karma.. wait till you got car.. i curse yours will be worst than mine.