I just hate that Bia*ch...

I'm angry because I CARE~!

6 months together.... is not easy~! gggggggrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhh........

Where are you now?

After leaving dell penang, there's totally no news about you. Where and how have you been?

Hoping to keep in touch soon... It's been 3 months already. Never knew I would go this far. But you are always on my thought.

Take care~!

*saw his blog on May 11th... so happy*

How long will this last?

After the official communication of gAMSformation. Alot of people are not happy. This can be easily seen from the way they talk and act. All the frustration and anger was vent out on whoever that come their way.
Why does those that didn't do anything wrong have to face it? **sigh**

Making a lot of people's life miserable, you happy?
What a crazy life we're in now.

When only can I say that?

Stepping into the second day after gAMSformation, we can really feel the pain - missing so many team mates and the work load is still the same. Only left 3 of us, we really work like a cow now.
No doubt the 3 of us are getting closer to protect ourselves, but we really still miss working with you.
I'll miss working with you as you guy are always there for me when there's any issue.
So, when only I can tell you that I'll miss working with you?? Because I'm afraid I'm not able to calm myself down.

Coming to think of it, I'm really putting myself into positive mood that the whole thing is going to bring benefits to all. I'm still having my finger cross hoping to see more light coming in..
God Bless gAMS...

I got a surprise visit from one of my colleague from Sales. He had left the company about one and half years ago and he came back to visit. And he still can remember me. Of course last time, we had so much of memories together. He was always acting as my manager when customers insist of speaking to one. He also teaches me alot, because he is one guy that is not selfish of sharing.. Thanks for dropping by and surprise me, Mahen...

What is LIFE?

What is Life without happiness??

No happiness means no life?

Are you happy when you are being ignored? Not once but twice in a day?

What if people around thinks that you are not even worth to spend some time trying to ignore you?

What is LIFE?

Is there any place that you would just fit in nicely and everyone is comfortable?

Please take me there???

Re-org... feelings of before, in-transition and after

Some so-called smart fellas invented ITIL. If you are in the business plus IT environment you should know what I'm talking about. No doubt the whole process in the text of ITIL looks so perfect. But will it be supported by reality? Will everything be so clear cut and everyone will be on the same track to drive the results?

When we were first hit by the transformation towards ITIL, I wasn't really clear about this.
1)Basically I wasn't really paying much attention and time to read the blog.
2)I thought it would open up more head count for others to join our team.

I guess I was being naive in putting any effort to understand the whole situation that I was about to put myself into. As time past, ITIL and gAMStransformation has been a hot topic. I did went through the blog and read up on some of the new roles that they are offered. I have a few roles in mind, but I kept thinking I am still new to the team. Barely 6 months, **Do I stand a chance to fight with my seniors?** Eventually this was pushed out of my mind. Until the day when my dear manager was supposed to have a discussion with us if there's any role that we're interested. Actually I'm all prepared to discuss this with him. But I wasn't given the chance. He basically just drop by each of everyone's cube and have a short discussion. When he came to my desk, he said:

Boss: ahh you are new and were hired for this position, so I'll put you in primary incident.
Me : fair enough **the same thinking came back to me**

That was the only conversation or so-called one to one I had with him.
After that day, I heard of alot of rumours. About lots of things and people. At the point of time, I was still so naive that our workload will be lessen. My mood is still not affected by the transformation, I just couldn't bother to even think of the pros and cons. Until recently when this has became super duper hot topic and some people got some so called first hand information from their managers. Our team was still blur about what is yet to happen. Whenever we bring this topic up, my manager will go, everything is still not so clear at the moment, and I doesn't want to give you guys the wrong information. Be patience la.. Basically I couldn't remember how he put that in words, but the meaning was more or less the same.

Until last thursday (10th Apr), when I was on leave to attend 3 pak's funeral. My manager called me and informed me of the changes that is happening. I raised a few questions but none can be answered by my manager. Like what we say ~l.p.p.l~ la...
Today, one week later, we have our first training on our future roles. There is still so many gray areas. Attending the training makes me more confuse than ever. During the training, the instructors was being shot, by those unhappy team mates that are either not happy/satisfy or agree with this change. I can see that all their anger are vent on these 2 poor guys. Asking questions that had been answered numerious time that there's no clear cut answer/solution to it. And for some questions neing asked, they actually have answers in mind or know what to do. Hence, training was dreaded longer than expected.

After today's training, I feel that the whole transformation is **rubbish** (this is my personal oppinion). Although I still do hope that this would bring benefits to all :
~ to the employee
~to the company
~ to those staying in the same role
~ to those that are moving to another role
This is purely my input on what was communicated to me and to the extend of what I understand. Alot of new roles are basically redundant. Worst is that some are being changed to new role and no replacement. So what will happen to those staying in the same role? There will be the same amount of workload but now shared by fewer people?
I'm just so sorry to say that I can't imagine or even see all that benefits that was communicated to us before the latest news was out. Alot of us are demoted, depress - well at least I'm feeling that when I got the news. This doesn't means we doesn't agree with the changes, but what was promised is still so blur and that we're not able to even see it yet. The official date for the transformation is 20th Apr 2009, which is next monday. But everyone is still in the dark.
As of now, I'm only able to blog until here as official transformation hasn't happen. We're all still hoping that what we understand will not be come reality.

** I guess it has been so long since I posted a loong entry.. Bcoz, this is the only place I can vent out everything without anyone interrupting.. ngek ngek ngek... Enjoyreading~**

Lynda is beh song today. DND~

I'm so mad at myself for doing stupid things and being puppetted by some one.

Doing all the non value added things and make people angry. Just so stupid of me.

From today onwards, I'll not be the organizer anymore.. Just participate will be good enough.

You don't like it, fine~! Wasting my time and not being appreciated. Human beings are so hard to be pleased.